He pisses me off

Chris and I just got into another fight. Sometimes I feel like I want to hit him. He can be such an asshole. Most of my life I have wanted to be married and to have someone, now that I am all I can think about is how much freedom that I had before. I feel like I have no choices. No options available to me. I hate feeling like I have no control over my life. I want to be able to drive my car and just go. I want to never come back. Then I feel quilty for being so selfish. I wish that I knew before what I know now.