Just some Thoughts

Today I talked to a good friend of mine. I haven't seen him in a really long time, for about twenty minutes it was like old times. It is funny how life flies by. When you are actually living it, you don't think that you will ever look back and miss those days because you think that that is the way it will always be. Change happens so fast. I look back to where I was a year ago. A different job, a different town, a different shift, church, house, lifestyle and I realize how quickly life moves by. The things that you hold so much value to are suddenly meaningless and the friends that you thought would be there forever are suddenly no where to be found. It kind of reminds me of high school. You graduate and everyone says that they will be friends forever and make sure that they keep in touch and before long you are at your five year reunion and you realize you haven't talked to your "best friend" in five years. I look back at last year with a little bit of tears in my eyes. I wish I would have appreciated my friends because now many of them are moving on to different things and it will be harder to stay in contact with them. I long to go back for one day and embrace the people from the Naz it was as if in one day and in one week our entire family was torn apart. I miss my old job just the light heartedness of having the comfort of knowing everyone and everything about everyone that made it feel sort of like home. I look back and realize how much I didn't enjoy living with my parents while I could. It is so strange visiting your own house and not crawling up the stairs and sleeping in your own bed because it is no longer there. I went up to my room the other day and cried. My mom left all of my paintings and pictures on the wall. It looked almost exactly how I left it. For once I thought of all the memories in that room, good and bad. I missed my mom coming in to check on me before she would leave for work and trying to be quite because she thought that I was already sleeping. I miss my dad rumbling around because he is just typically a loud kinda guy. I even miss fighting with my brother (sometimes) I am not even sure why these thoughts are running through my head I was just thinking how I spent the majority of my life thinking that my life would never change and that nothing exciting would ever alter my universe. I quess when God answers our prayers we never do know exactly how he is going to work things out.....
I am finally starting to feel tired, so I quess I'll shut up.