Visit to the Hospital

Today my sister and I went to see both Emma and Louise. I almost cried when I saw Emma. She hasn't eaten anything since she was burned. Her mom said that basically she has been drinking milk. They have been giving her morphine since she got burned and apparently it has ruined her appetite. An answer to prayer was that she is not going to need skin graphs. The visit to Louise is what killed me. I have known Louise my entire life. She didn't know me or my sister. She couldn't sit still and it sounded like she was drunk. She was very incoherent. We only saw her for a couple of minutes because we could tell that she was tired and needed to rest. As we were walking out the door her son kept repeating his phone number to her so that she would call if she needed him. She couldn't remember his phone number. We sat in the waiting room with vaughn and Schaun and asked them what they were going to do to help her and they said nothing. The tumor is inopperable and after what her husband went through with brain cancer and all of the chemo and radiation they aren't willing to do that with her. They are waiting for her to stabilize and then they are taking her home. They asked us to pray. That is the only thing that we can do now. They said that they are having the water and soil checked. Both her husband, her neighbor and her dogs died from the exact same kind of cancer. The doctors told them that there is a 99% that she has the same type of cancer that they all had. They think that a factory or some sort of waste has leaked into the river behind there house. The river floods twice a year and goes into their water bed. That goes into their well and into their pond. I don't know what to think of feel. I have never had something happen like this to someone so close to me in such a short amount of time. I watch as the rest of my family and friends move on day to day as if nothing is wrong and I want to throw things. I don't want to be angry at God. I mean, who am I to be angry at God? I can't help but feel frustrated though. How could he let something like this happen to such wonderful people? I think about the fact that just a year ago I was hanging out with both of Schaun's parents as if nothing was wrong and in such a short amount of time everything seems to have fallen apart. I remember waiting for Louise outside of church for her to show us something new or tell us a funny story. I remember sitting in her van talking to her. Staying at her house. Going to Cedar Point. I am sad for her family, her friends, and anyone that has ever known and loved someone that had their dignity stolen away by such a horrible and awful disease. I don't want to speak death upon her. God can and is still able to heal her and I have no idea what his plan is by letting this happen. I just pray that we are all prepared for what happens in the end...