Weird

Chris decided last night that it would be a great idea to introduce me to his ex-girlfriend.... It wasn't. I have never felt so weird and self conscious. The whole time I wanted to strangle him. I looked like crap. My hair was everywhere (literally, we had just gotten off of work) I was tired and I didn't have makeup on. I know that it is stupid, but I wanted to look pretty, like I didn't want her to see what only the back room of walmart is exposed to... Apparently I wasn't the only one who was uncomfortable. Chris said she was shaking the entire time. I didn't really notice I was too busy focusing on the Chris Tomlin cd I was looking at so that she wouldn't be able to see how red my face was. All I could think was. My husband used to tell you he loved you. It made me feel weird because as a woman you always wonder if your husband compares you with the other people he used to be with... She was skinny so that definately made me feel weird. Thank God it was only five minutes, although I am really not joking it seriously felt like five years. The whole way home I felt sick. I told him to never introduce me to anyone he has dated ever again. He seemed to understand, although he reminded me that he has now worked with two people that I have dated. I tried to explain that that was different. I wasn't in a serious relationship with them. I think I kissed the one guy like twice (dead serious) and the other one literally a handful of times. It was never anything to jump over fences about. (Or as Tom Cruise did, jump on couches) I have to get going.
write more later....