Walmart is killing my feet.

In case anyone reading this has not been into our new walmart lately our new state of the art walmart has new flooring which consists of ----deedeedahdeetdeetdeee!!! Poured CONCRETE!!
Anyone that has an arch in their foot can walk into our walmart and notice within a short period of time that their feet ache beyond bearable..(I hope I am spelling ok, everytime I post something I notice afterwards that I have spelled so many words wrong... Believe me it is not because I am stupid or anything, but half of the time I am tired and typing to fast for my brain.) I have asked several fellow associates if they have found anything to help with sore feet, and no one has found anything that works beyond a couple of days. I have gotten new shoes (New Balances) and now have four different inserts (One of them was the most expensive ones that we had) and NOTHING is working, so if anyone has any ideas I would love to hear them:)! I am so excited:) I do not have to work for THREE DAYS:) I know that you guys are sick of hearing about it, but I am soooo happy:) The first day I am spending the night with Lydia, who is in town from Pittsburgh. (In case anyone could possibly not know she is like my bestest non related friend in the entire world.) She just got engaged so I have to enjoy these sleepovers while I still can:) and the two days after that Chris and I are spending on vacation with my mommy and daddy at the lake:) I love going there and rollarblading on their trails and walking alongside the beach. Chris isn't as excited, but I told him that he can bring one of his stupid videogame thingys and play the whole time if he wants... (I know that he'll eventually change his mind and come check out the lake with me:) ) I am so excited to hear from Danielle and Jennifer!! I miss you guys so much I hope we get to see each other soon:) Love Ya'll! I still haven't found sunglasses... Stay tuned for further updates...

EVALUATION

I got my evaluation at work. I have to be honest. I have never felt so scared of knowing someone elses' opinion. Over the past few months I have had some of the worst emotional ups and downs. I have almost hated being at work every single day that I was there and I have felt frustraited with the situations involed with learning a new position, meeting new people, and dealing with annoying circumstances of training new people. (That just don't seem to understand HOW simple the entire process is.!!!!!!!) You find the said item. You cut the item open. If possible you keep the item surrounded by cardboard and locate it above it's tag on said shelf. You turn the labels to look pretty and you move on to the next item! WAS THAT VERY DIFFICULT TO UNDERSTAND!!!!????? Apparently for some people. Well my manager decided to do it on Capitan PMS's first day of arrival. (I was all emotional) I asked him if I should bring a couple boxes of kleenex. Than I found out that 4 people had input on my eval. DO you know how difficult it is to have FOUR people do you eval only 2 of which you work for on a regular basis!! (Especially since the day before I had told one of the four that he wasn't my boss, because I am NOT part of his said "team," and he could go bother one of them... (Open mouth insert foot.) Luckily that is always how I treat him:) Anyways I was very excited when I got the highest rating on my eval, I exceded on everything and got the highest raise you can get. (.55) I couldn't believe it:) Not that I don't try to work hard or anything, but normally I work in the back room by myself and there is an 8 hour shift after I leave and before managers get there that mess up everything that I get done anyway, I just figured that they thought I never did much of anything. I was told that I need to follow dress code (nose ring) and that the next time my boss sees it in she is going to rip it out so I don't have to worry about it anymore... (I took it out) and that I need to watch my attendence, but my manager excused my absences because I was at the doctors, so the computer says that I have 0!!!! Anyway I had to tell you guys all of this:)
I start my VACATION TOMORRO!!! 3 days off! I am the most excited person in the entire world I swear:) I'll make sure to tell everyone how it all goes! Adios!

Cleaning House

Today Chris and I scrubbed our place. Not that it ever is really truly gross, but it just needed a really good scrubbing. I had him move all the furniture so we could sweep everything and he sprayed all around outside and inside for those stupid little earwigs that crawl in the door whenever we open it. (Those things are so nasty looking.) We pretty much hung out today. Rented a couple of movies. I Walk The Line, and Wedding Crashers. I Walk The Line was ok. The movie seriously would not end though and I don't have much of an attention span. Wedding Crashers I only made it about 45 minutes into. I couldn't stay focused on it, I'll probably finish it tomorro before work. Lydia (My bestest friend in the whole wide world) called me today and her boyfriend proposed to her. I wanted to cry when she told me. We are all getting so old. I want to be a little kid again. She is supposed to drop by tomorro to show me the ring. She says that it is absolutely beautiful. I am so excited FOUR DAYS, ladies and gentlement, FOUR DAYS until I get to go on vacation from WALMART!!!!!! I know that it is only a three day weekend, but I am so excited to be leaving the area and hanging out with the familia doing old family vacation stuff....:) I'll make sure to fill everyone in on how much fun we are having:) Anyways, I am tired so goodnight..

I haven't written for a while, I guess not too much has been going on. Chris and I get our vactation soon and I am very excited about that:) SO LONG WALMART!!! Today I am supposed to go to my cousins wedding shower, but I hurt myself at work yesterday and I really don't feel like going. I know my mom will kill me if I don't show up so I am just going to try and suffer through it. My siblings and I have never been close to our cousins, but there is this obligation that I need to show up because she came to mine... Chris is talking to me as I am writing this and he just told me that he had a dream last night that a pirate told him if he eats cereal it will constipate him.:) I don't know why I had to write that, I just thought it was really funny:) I dropped by the party at the Dilbones yesterday. I was sad that I didn't get to stay longer, but we were on our lunchbreak and Chris is anal about us being at work and on time. I hate having someone force me to be responsible. I miss everyone from the Naz so much. It is like seeing the people that literally became part of your family. I told Chris that I want to start going over there on sundays after church. He hates meeting new people so he told me that I will have to find something for him to do while I am there. (We only have one car right now.) I wish that he would come too, but he is capitan unsocial. It is funny seeing him around my family. (We never shut up and we start conversations with complete strangers.)
++ Oh I had to write what happened to me at work yesterday. This customer comes up and asks me if this guy (Josh) was at work. I have no clue who "Josh" is so I ask what he looks like. She describes him and I remember that he is there and I page him for her. She looks at her friends and says "Isn't it pathetic I know his schedule?" "He is so hot, blah, blah, blah." I am thinking awww how cute she has a little crush. He calls me back and asks if it is his wife. (I feel my stomach sinking.) I describe her and he says that it must be his wife and he'll be right out. (I have now realized that this must not be his wife and I have probably just interrupted his job for some stranger who doesn't know he is married. ) I am walking back to the pallet and I mention to her something about being his wife and she laughs and says "No!" I just looked at her. I couldn't help myself. Trying to bite tongue. ohh noooo. "Well, you know he IS married?" This girl looks right up and is like "Yeah, so what? I don't care. He's freakin hot." I could literally feel the blood rushing to my face. I don't even know "Josh" or his wife, but I was so upset that someone would have the audacity to KNOW that someone was married and to pursue them ANYWAY!!!! I kept trying to shut myself up because I know that I could get into trouble for being rude, but I couldn't help myself. "You know if they cheat with you, they will cheat on you." I don't know if she was mad or not, but she and her little enterage just walked away. I seriously wanted to claw her eyes out. The whole time I am think what a stupid little whore. (excuse the language, I was really mad.) My face must have stayed red for quite sometime because I could feel the heat imminating from my body. I wish that I wasn't the confrontational type of person, but I am. So naturally I made sure to ask "Josh" if his little friend found him. (Thinking in my mind "I am going to rip his head off if he ever cheats on his wife.") He told me no, that it must not have been his wife, because she knows when his breaks are and wouldn't have interrupted him at work. I tell him what she said and he like every good husband answered that he was happily married with a kid. I am thinking... Yeah thats what you better say!!!!! Sorry such a long blog.

I heard from one of my best friends (Schaun) that he is getting married. It is so weird how a year ago I remember hanging out with him and us saying that we were "never going to get married..." Well, so much for that!:) Life is so ironic. I remember growing up with him and over the years spending the night at his house. (especially after some jerk boy had broken my heart.) He was like a male best friend version of Lydia. Always a safety net I could turn too when some plan of mine hadn't gone just right. A shoulder to cry on. I could literally tell him everything. What is so ironic is that the girl he is marrying (Mary) grew up with us also. Her mom died when she was 10 and her family left our church. After they left the church everyone lost contact with them, except for the occasional "coincedental sighting." When Schaun's dad died in December it brought so many of the old members of the Church back together.
My sister had a party in February and Mary and Schaun ended up seeing each other again. They started dating and Bam! I get the phone call that they are getting married. It was almost bitter sweet news. I cried at how much Schaun and I's friendship changed when I met Chris, now that he is getting married things will never be the way that they used to be. Not that I would trade in my tall hairy fuzz ball man for anything:) It is just weird to think that a year ago I was climbing trees at his house and trying to convince him to let me drive his eclipse. (For the record I did get to drive it once:) ) I am so happy for him. I am happy that God worked things out perfectly the way that he did.
Miracles:
--Schaun and I are literally ended up with our significant others months of each other, so that neither of us felt left out.
--That both of us found someone that perfectly matches, supports, and meshes so well with our personalities.
-- That God ignored our ignorant conversations about marriage "sucking" and blessed us with someone to love.
--That two incidents that Satan used for bad God used for good. If I hadn't had a car accident and if my Thyroid hadn't stopped working I would have never left third shift and had the opportunity to get to know the man I married. Who incidentally was the same person who beat me up on the play ground when I was 8 years old.
-- And finally, that two people who are hurting from the early loss of a parent have found each other and now have someone who understands to lean on and too love.
-- Oh yeah, more importantly I finally get to have Sex!

I miss singing

Today I heard a song that made me cry. It was a song by Michael W. Smith that I have heard since I was a little girl. I don't remember the exact title but I think it might be Place in This World. I cry everytime I hear "If there are millions down on their knees, among the many can you still here me?" I can literally visualize millions of people falling to their knees and it just makes me cry. It also reminds me of all of the memories when I was younger. They always played Michael W. Smith at the youth retreats for my dad's church. I was too young to go, but I always remember when my mom would go to help out and my little brother and I would sneak into see what all of the "older" kids were doing. It is weird to think of how old I am getting... The song brought back memories for my sister too. We sang it together and I realized. I miss singing.

Just some Thoughts

Today I talked to a good friend of mine. I haven't seen him in a really long time, for about twenty minutes it was like old times. It is funny how life flies by. When you are actually living it, you don't think that you will ever look back and miss those days because you think that that is the way it will always be. Change happens so fast. I look back to where I was a year ago. A different job, a different town, a different shift, church, house, lifestyle and I realize how quickly life moves by. The things that you hold so much value to are suddenly meaningless and the friends that you thought would be there forever are suddenly no where to be found. It kind of reminds me of high school. You graduate and everyone says that they will be friends forever and make sure that they keep in touch and before long you are at your five year reunion and you realize you haven't talked to your "best friend" in five years. I look back at last year with a little bit of tears in my eyes. I wish I would have appreciated my friends because now many of them are moving on to different things and it will be harder to stay in contact with them. I long to go back for one day and embrace the people from the Naz it was as if in one day and in one week our entire family was torn apart. I miss my old job just the light heartedness of having the comfort of knowing everyone and everything about everyone that made it feel sort of like home. I look back and realize how much I didn't enjoy living with my parents while I could. It is so strange visiting your own house and not crawling up the stairs and sleeping in your own bed because it is no longer there. I went up to my room the other day and cried. My mom left all of my paintings and pictures on the wall. It looked almost exactly how I left it. For once I thought of all the memories in that room, good and bad. I missed my mom coming in to check on me before she would leave for work and trying to be quite because she thought that I was already sleeping. I miss my dad rumbling around because he is just typically a loud kinda guy. I even miss fighting with my brother (sometimes) I am not even sure why these thoughts are running through my head I was just thinking how I spent the majority of my life thinking that my life would never change and that nothing exciting would ever alter my universe. I quess when God answers our prayers we never do know exactly how he is going to work things out.....
I am finally starting to feel tired, so I quess I'll shut up.