I cut My Finger

No literally. I was at work and my razor blade---ya know. So right now I am trying to type with 3 cut fingers. I cut my middle finger yesterday and I sliced that one and hit my ring finger right beside it. Needless to say several customers got to hear me cuss yesterday... The day before that I cut my index finger on my right hand. So I have two fingers cut on my left hand and one on my right hand... I HATE RAZOR BLADES....

Skillet

So I am not sure if anyone else has ever heard of the band named Skillet, but they are probably my favorite band of all time. I have listened to their music for almost ten years now and even there old stuff has found its' place on my MP3 player. Chris told me that they had a new CD out and I almost pooped my pants because I was so excited (not literally, but you get my point.) He said that he hadn't noticed it before because they are no longer in the Christian section. So of course I had to have there CD and as I listened to it I noticed a pattern. I was kind of surprised because not one of their songs even mentioned Jesus, God, Christianity they had one song that mentioned Angels and that was pretty much as spiritual as what they got. It was so radically different from their original music, even from their stuff from 2002, and 2004. So I got on their website and saw that they went mainstream. I wasn't dissappointed in that or even that they are trying to sell more of their CD's to a larger audience, but that they no longer even say that they are Christians. Their bios didn't even mention that they started out in the Christian music industry or that they even believed in God. I couldn't tell if they were trying to broaden their audience/fan base, or if they are just trying to make more money. It kind of made me sad. I remember in high school all of my friends were HUGE Jewel fans and everyone in our school played her songs on their guitars on lunch and stuff. I still remember how upset they were when she sold out. She started dressing like Brittany Spears and totally changed her music. After that happened they no longer even listened to her music. I don't care that they want to change their audience so much that they really didn't think of their fans in the process. Like I can't go watch them in concert anymore, because they open for bands like Saliva and a bunch of other crappy bands. The last thing I want to go watch is a bunch people cussing and jumping around. It is a stupid reason to be upset I know. I want to write them a letter and tell them how dissappointed I am that they just ditched all of us. (OK, you guys can all laugh at me now.)

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I found out today that I got the Job:) I start a week from Saturday:) Needless to say I am very, very excited:) Just wanted to let everyone know....

My Window

So I didn't get the vision center position... But like the saying goes. When God closes a door he opens a window. So I quess that the pharmicist is looking at me for a position in the pharmacy, which would still include a raise and better hours. I am sad that I didn't get the position that I wanted, but excited for a change and I figure that I have my name on the list to transfer to the vision center when a position opens, so maybe someday. The only thing that sucks about the pharmacy is that I am not promised Sunday's off. I really want a position that has Sundays off. I quess that the pharmacist said that he would only schedule me one Sunday a month... I'll post more later I have to get to work....

God Walks Through The Door

I don't know why I wrote that title. It just sounded how I feel right now. I had prayed for a different job to maintain my sanity, when within the week a job has opened up:) I am so excited. A woman was talking to me in the backroom and she mentioned that a job had opened up in the vision center and that I should apply for it. I thought about it for a while and the more I thought about the job the more I really wanted it. I mentioned it to several managers that I was really interested in the position and apparently the manager over that area mentioned that she knew I was interested in the job. She asked if she could have me and I quess that my managers told her that she would have to wait until after Christmas and even then she would have to fight for me. I was really scared to talk to my manager about switching areas because I thought that she would feel like I went behind her back to try to do something with out her knowledge, but when I talked to her she seemed to understand completely. She asked me why I wanted the job and I told her the truth. The job is professional. It was exactly why I wanted to try working at Marathon. I also wouldn't have to work on Sundays and the hours would be earlier in the evening. Of course I don't know if I got the job yet or not, but even if I didn't the whole fact that my manager seemed to understand makes me fear finding something else a lot less!!! I am praying and believing that I will get this position. I am not sure when I will find out about interviews, but I will make sure that I keep you guys posted:)

Hey Guys

Haven't written in forever, but we just finally got the internet set up, so I can finally write again!! Has anybody heard from Deb? I tried to get her blog site to come up and it wouldn't. Does she have a new one or what? Nothing much has been going on. I have decided that I need to leave Wal-mart sometime soon. I don't want to do it right away, because I need a job, but I am going to be putting my application into some temp agencies in the Spring and see what happens. This seems to be a sudden type of thing, but I have been with Wal-Mart since I was 17 and I have just come to the realization that I cannot retire from there and if I stay any longer, I will be there the rest of my life. I couldn't handle the idea of that. I think that now I am starting to see how much the company is changing and I cannot imagine having a family and no holidays off, or weekends. Chris and I have talked a lot about it, and we know that we won't be applying for a home loan anytime soon so it would be a perfect time for both of us to leave and find employment elsewhere. We both have a lot of praying to do. I quess that is why I haven't done anything right away. Nothing really exciting has been going on lately. I went through some major depression over the last few months and I couldn't seem to figure out what was wrong with me, it was seriously like an everyday thing. It was almost like I lost the will to want to live and everything. I finally asked my pharmacist about it. I told him what medication I was on and come to find out, both of them can cause major depression. Since I couldn't quit taking my thyroid medicine I quit taking my birth control and I am not joking, I felt better the next day. It was like weights have been lifted off of my shoulders. I read the side effects and it said that if you experienced depression or thoughts of suicide to contact your Physician. I was thinking to myself "Why couldn't they have told me that information before....." Anyway I quit taking it like a week ago and I have never felt better:) I have to get going (Chris is watching a movie and it is distracting me and I cannot write with it on.)

I hate moving

I haven't posted lately, because we don't have the internet right now. (I am actually using my parents computer.) Moving to North Baltimore was probably the worst experience I have had so far this year (or maybe any year in fact) On top of the usual stress that goes with moving. We had a half-an-hour to get the carpets shampooed and wax the floors... We got the type of shampoo that you rub into the carpet yourself and then you sweep the left over stuff off the floor. Well, half way through this whole process the sweeper breaks. (We ended up using the broom to try to mix the dry balls of white stuff back into the carpet, it must of worked because she didn't notice it.) We crammed everything into out U-Haul and we were finally ready to go. We were almost to his grandparents when I remembered that we had to drop the mattress off at my parents house. Chris turned around and when we got there he opened the back of the U-Haul to get the mattress. In the process breaking our living room lamp. We head to his grandparents and I leave first because I was parked behind him... He pulls into his grandparents house (on the other side of North Baltimore, so basically down the street) and the U-Haul is open. Initially I laughed because I couldn't think of anything that was really valuable that we put in there. (Kitchen, bathroom stuff, etc.) Chris just started freaking out. He screams at me to get in the car. We drive down the street and find nothing. I couldn't understand why he was so upset. Then he tells me that his comics were in the back of the U-Haul. I had competely forgotten. (Chris has collected comics since he was a little Kid) Since he didn't have a lot of friends growing up his comics were basically his life and entertainment... We get down the road and still haven't found anything. Chris drops me off and heads around town to ask people. He goes to this house that had some stuff in the street that looked like it might have fallen out (paper plates, etc.) The guy opens his door and he has some of our stuff in his living room. Chris is like "Thats my stuff." He asks the guy what happened. The guy basically tells him that he looks out his door and this dark truck is loading all of this stuff in his truck. This is the stuff that he left behind... I have never seen Chris cry so hard. It broke my heart. I know that that may sound stupid to other people, but he grew up with those characters. Those comics were his only possession that he really loved. (probably more than me:) ) We did everything to get that stuff back. We asked people. We went to the police station everything. No one turned anything in and basically we have come to the conclusion that some people aren't as honest as what they could or should be. I told my brother what happened and he told me that God must be punishing us for materialism. That really pissed me off. I know that as an outsider it is easy to say that "God is trying to teach you something, or maybe those people needed that stuff more." It is easy to say that to someone if it didn't happen to you. When it happens to you it hurts and it is frustraiting and it totally pisses you off, but if it happens to someone else it doesn't seem to be as big of a deal. We know that they will probably sell his stuff on Ebay or something, but there is no real way that we can prove that they are stolen to stop them. We went to Toledo to try to replace some of the ones that he had lost. I saw one that came out a month ago with a sketch drawn cover for $99.00 Chris had several of those from like 7-10 years ago. So for the most part we couldn't really afford to replace what he lost. My heart hurts for him because I know that he is so upset about it. I know that they were just possessions, but they were his possessions and we don't really have anything as it is.
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So we move into the house. Nothing has been moved out. So it has been quite a tight squeeze.... With all of our furniture and everything else in piles basically, I can't wait to get all of it done so I don't have to think about it anymore.
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On a lighter note. We did get some of Chris' paintings back. A friend of his family's saw stuff falling out so he put all of Chris' paintings on the side of the road and followed us to tell Chris' mom where he had put everything. (unfortunately, the other stuff had fallen out earlier) The rest of the stuff that happened this week is another LONG story, so I will wait until my next blog to tell everyone the rest.